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Addicted

I’m addicted to you

I should be in rehab with how you make me feel

All the blood rushes as soon as I hear you say my name

Can we repopulate the earth?

With small people who look like you and I?

Their little heart captivating mines

Can I love the pieces of you that you think are unloveable?

The pieces that you hide in dark places at night in fear of never healing

I’m addicted to you

The way the sun perfectly has caramelized your skin

The way your locs are now a mane

I remember when you were a teenager

Young with so much life in your eyes

Time has aged you like fine wine

I’m addicted to the way you talk in the car when you pick me up in the morning

The way you go on and on about your life philosophies and thoughts

I long to know what your lips taste like

How to touch the intimate parts of your manhood

Trymar I’m addicted to you……

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Unrequited

I love you

No but really I love you

Deeply…. passionately…. selflessly

Agape me

Because I breathe you in

Because I can feel your force

Life is full of unrequited feelings

Some from Mommy

Some from Daddy

Some from friends

Some from lovers

Here’s my heart ripped from chest and put into your hands

Please take care of it

But there it goes on the floor

There they go stepping on it

Here comes the conditions to receive my love back

Love in vows

Love in pain

Love in loyalty

Love is hurting

Your love has contracts

Bullet points

Rules and regulations

When my love is an ocean

Deep, dark and meaningful

But I love you

I agape you

But you have unrequited me back

Now there’s a hole where there was once a heart

You can’t tell me anymore stories

I love you’s

I’m here for you

Love me back

Go get my heart from those who you let abuse it

You tell me trust you how can I?

My heart hurts

I’m sorry where my heart used to live hurts

Now it’s just a hole

Empty

Dark

Unrequited

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Common Denominator

I got friend zoned

But I’m married

I mean I’m separated

I gave vowels in front of our families and God

Only to sleep in my car

I fell in love with a boy

Who’s manhood was no where to be found

I’m married but not in love

I got friend zone by the man who is my air

“Needy” and “annoying” are the actives he used to describe me

Can you see my heart?

Here on my sleeve!

No more walls but emotional boundaries are needed

I was married and now I’m not

I was friend zoned and now I’m hurt

I was stupid in love and now I’m not

My heart is tucked away safe in hiding

Until healing is the common denominator for my life

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Uneventfully Beautiful

“I’m just not that into you….”

He said sadly with dragging breaths between his words

“You’re just not my type….”

The open ended manner of that statement left pieces of my soul dead

“I can be her…” I thought to myself, the woman you dream of daily

Can I nurse your heart back to health?

But my beauty is unconventional and unlike many others and the statement

“Not pretty enough” often invades my mind, why can I just look like someone else?

God when your paint brush was forming what I look like why did you make me ugly?

Ordinary?

Uneventfully not beautiful…..

What would that feel like? 

To have men fawn on me daily?

My DMs stay on full?

Instead I’m a nerd who just gets laughed at

The not good enough, always behind, never ever able to be “the one” 

My conventional corniness will never get me the dream guy

Never the sweet guy

Never the thoughtful guy

Never the consistent guy

Beauty gets you those things right?

I get sex

Left overs

Read but never responded to text messages

Tons of orgasums but never flowers

Never commitment 

Never happily ever after

They say that beauty fades well I’m jealous

I want beauty now

Because internal beauty has never gotten me anywhere but hurt