The pain filled the space between the breathes as he spoke

I’m simply not attracted to you…

Inhale

Exhale

Heart beating through my chest

You check every box for me but I can never be attracted to you he says aloud

My weight holds him back

A soul connection that will never spark

Because the outer beauty never matched the inner

I’ve beat myself up about the pain and dismay of that love lost

Never good enough for the love that is craved

Pushed aside and discarded as void, empty, unlovable

Is there love that doesn’t have an orgasum attached to it?

Can you feel and fill the depths of my soul

Caress my existence with your words and thoughts?

Or will it always be a closed door?

A what if?

A not good enough?

A better fit somewhere else?

Could you love my soul and not my body?

I doubt it but I would’ve given a lifetime to figure that out

My existence withers away wondering

Is it I that am unlovable or is it my body?