I adore your existence that lives in my space

Waiting on this love and butterflies to pass because I wear my heart on my sleeve

Looking into your eyes gives me peace

When you speak of the future I wish it were with me

But I’m not the first choice just because I’m around

Just because in your arms I feel the safest

The most loved

But that’s selfishly motivated

To only think of my needs

Knowing what it is you require

You know that you can’t give me what I need and that I can do better

I smother everyone I come in contact with

If I really love you then I’ll want you happy

Happy with someone who isn’t me

So now I’m in this space where great connection, good dick and unrequited feelings meet

Asking myself how did I get here again?

I won’t throw a temper tantrum because I didn’t get what I wanted

But instead keep a friend that I know is down for me

But loves himself enough to say that he requires more and me loving him isn’t enough

This hurts but that’s life….right?